With sufficient determination, I opened my eyes at 10:15am. Giving up a fine morning to exercise, I eventually went to the assembly. Surely, my presence was no more than a show-up as I arrived at 11:30. The less than one hour of staying at the room and listening to the priest’s words seemed relentlessly long. I have respect for the belief in the Christ and everyone who has the faith, thus I never confront any one of them and present a tiny little sign of my doubt, though it is never gonna be comfortable when you are infused with a different type of mindset while you are already prone to one.
However, I was requested again to get baptized by the priest. Her truthfulness and sincerity always made me embarrassed to say no though I always wanted to. I am totally with her that she wants me to have fortune and blessing, but faith means a lot in my life and I just couldn't easily say yes. We have freedom to express our faith in whatever we need and I believe this should also go along with the negation, that is, we are also free to not to express faith in something. Religion has almost lost the taste of faith, using too much and too strong hard-selling techniques to retain and enlarge its target groups. Though people won't consider it a bad thing, it still maters for me who never have that faith and dare not deceive my conscience.
The problem is not just about a simple "yes" or "no", but a whole way of dealing with numerous people, managing those give-and-take turns, and maintaining good relationship for future. And that's why I didn't tell my priest that I'm not a faithful Christian but I'll still attend the activities here.
However, I was requested again to get baptized by the priest. Her truthfulness and sincerity always made me embarrassed to say no though I always wanted to. I am totally with her that she wants me to have fortune and blessing, but faith means a lot in my life and I just couldn't easily say yes. We have freedom to express our faith in whatever we need and I believe this should also go along with the negation, that is, we are also free to not to express faith in something. Religion has almost lost the taste of faith, using too much and too strong hard-selling techniques to retain and enlarge its target groups. Though people won't consider it a bad thing, it still maters for me who never have that faith and dare not deceive my conscience.
The problem is not just about a simple "yes" or "no", but a whole way of dealing with numerous people, managing those give-and-take turns, and maintaining good relationship for future. And that's why I didn't tell my priest that I'm not a faithful Christian but I'll still attend the activities here.
The third journal was done last night with my one-shot effort till 4am. I wanna sleep but I have 5, 6 covering letters in hand. I'm still not myself today, in bad mood for working, due to the bad news yesterday.
Photo of the day: the temptation of blue (from the Internet)
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